Igniting Innovation: Impact X Brings Entrepreneurship to Life at St.FX

Impact X is an event you won’t want to miss. The idea for an innovative entrepreneurship event became a reality in April 2023, founded by a dynamic group of individuals, including Alex Doward, Dr. Greg Hadley, Alexis MacDonald, Paula Brophy, Dr. Abede Mack and Dr. Neil Maltby, alongside three students—Erica Cameron, Isaac Herlihy, and Inka Mittler. Erica Cameron shared her thoughts on the upcoming event, saying, “It’s an opportunity for students to grow and be involved in St.FX’s entrepreneurship program.”

Over the last few years, St.FX has been working to expand its entrepreneurial ecosystem, achieving notable success with students going to external pitch competitions and events. However, Erica explained that the university recognized a gap: a lack of local opportunities for students to showcase their ideas and learn from each other. Impact X fills that void, offering an engaging space for students to learn, connect, and pitch ideas. The event is set to become a milestone for St.FX’s entrepreneurship program, fostering creativity and collaboration among students, professors, and the community.

The weekend-long event kicks off on Friday, November 22, with an evening set to inspire the community and prepare participants. The weekend will begin with a keynote address by Tareq Hadhad, the CEO and founder of Peace by Chocolate, whose story of resilience and success as a refugee is bound to leave a lasting impression. Following Tareq’s address, attendees will participate in elevator pitch workshops and introduction meetings in preparation for Saturday’s main pitch event. Even if you are not pitching at the competition, Friday evening is open to the entire community, making it a perfect opportunity to be part of the innovative and inspiring event.

Saturday’s event features roundtable workshops and other incredible speakers, such as Mallory Yawnghwe, the Founder and Co-Chief Executive Officer of Indigenous Box Inc. The weekend will finish with the main pitch event, where students will compete for a share of $10,000 in prizes. The highly anticipated competition has attracted participants from universities across the Maritimes and even high school students from Toronto. With a diverse mix of participants, the event is not just a competition but also a learning and networking opportunity.

Impact X is not only designed for students who want to pitch business ideas but also for those curious about entrepreneurship and the business world. Whether you’re an aspiring entrepreneur or someone looking to learn more about the creative process behind start-up companies, there is something for everyone at Impact X. Looking ahead, Erica expressed her hopes for the conference, stating, “I hope that the conference makes an impact on students and simply, it’s also just a cool event that I hope students can get excited for each year.” As a new tradition for the Business program at St.FX, Impact X is set to ignite the entrepreneurial spirit in students and establish itself as a fundamental pillar in the university’s entrepreneurship program.

Celebrate the Season: Don’t Miss the Antigonish Fall Fair!

Are you looking for a break from studying or a fun festive outing? On October 26, from 8:30 to 1:00 PM, the Antigonish Farmer’s Market will host the Antigonish Fall Fair. The festive fall event promises fun for all ages, making it the ideal outing for families, students, and community members.

As Halloween is approaching, a highlight of the day will be the costume contest, open to participants of all ages. Whether you want to dress up as your favourite superhero or a spooky ghost, everyone is encouraged to show off their creative costumes. There are two prize categories: Child (0-12) and Teen/Adult (13+), where each winner will receive $20 worth of Market Bucks to spend at the farmer’s market! If you plan to dress up, ensure that there are no masks or weapons and that costumes are not offensive or perpetuate cultural, gender, heritage, or religious stereotypes. As well, the fair will feature a fall-themed photo booth for those who want to capture their costumes or the festive fall atmosphere. Filled with fall decorations, it’s the perfect place to snap a memory with friends or family.

The fair will also host incredible local vendors with plenty of fall goodies for sale. Hot apple cider and homemade pies will be available, just to name a few! For the little ones and those who want to partake, the fair will also offer shell colouring and face painting. With a variety of vendors and activities, the Fall Fair will be sure to put you in the fall spirit.

Lastly, no fair would be complete without music. Local musician Ty Wallace will provide live entertainment, adding to the exciting and festive atmosphere at the fair. Whether you come for the activities, the food, or the entertainment, the Antigonish Fall Fair is sure to offer something for everyone. Mark your calendar for October 26 and visit the Antigonish Fall Fair, you won’t want to miss it!

Roots to Results: Cultivating Environmental Health Equity

The StFX Health Society team has been busy gearing up for their upcoming 2nd annual health conference, Roots to Results: Cultivating Environmental Health Equity, and the event is just around the corner. I recently had the opportunity to chat with second-year students Reese Mann and Katie MacNeil, who serve as the Co-VPs of Conferences for the StFX Health Society, to discuss various aspects of this highly anticipated weekend.

Reese Mann is originally from Moncton, New Brunswick, and her primary health-related interests include health equity, youth development, and exploring the various ways our environment influences our health.

Katie MacNeil, a proud Antigonish local, draws inspiration from her agricultural background, driving her passion for food security and public health policy. Her aspirations include a future career in health policy or as a physician assistant.

Katie and Reese have been at the forefront of planning the upcoming conference, with the support of their 15 fellow StFX Health Society executive members. This student-led society is passionate about enhancing the health of both students and the greater community. Emphasizing the power of a great team, Katie and Reese highlight how the executive members bring out each other's strengths. This collaborative effort makes it possible to achieve great things, like the organization of various fun and educational events, actively promoting a sense of unity within the Health program at StFX.

The conference on March 22nd and 23rd will explore critical topics, including health equity, the impacts of climate change on both physical and mental health, and strategies for building resilience against climate change through public policy, individual initiatives, and community action. Attendees can look forward to gaining a new and expanded perspective on climate change and environmental health equity.

When it comes to the highlights of the upcoming conference, Katie is most looking forward to the think tank session. She sees it as a valuable opportunity for participants to reflect on the insights shared by the impressive lineup of speakers. The commitment to community engagement, involving both students and the greater Antigonish population, has been a priority since the early planning stages, and Katie is excited to see this vision come to life.

Reese had a tough time picking the most exciting part of the upcoming conference! Among her honorable mentions are the Smudging ceremony led by Kerry Prosper, the climate grief session hosted by Dr. Ivan Drouin, and, like Katie, the think tank session facilitated by Dr. Riley Olstead. In terms of speakers, she looks forward to hearing Chief Pauline Frost of Vuntut Gwitchin First Nation in Yukon delve into discussions on social and community wellness, renewable resources, and economic development. Reese highlighted Chief Pauline Frost's unique perspective, noting that she will be the only speaker from outside of Atlantic Canada.

If you're still unsure about attending, here's what Katie and Reese believe makes the 2nd annual health conference a must-attend event:

Katie emphasizes, “The networking opportunities with the speakers and leaders in the field, the chance to enhance your understanding of the environmental impact on your health in a consumable way, and the potential for a change in perspective on the topic make this conference a must-attend. This topic is not highlighted enough on campus, especially not from a health perspective.”

Reese adds, “Attending this event will broaden each attendee's perspective on the interconnectedness of health and the environment while hearing from some of the biggest changemakers in the health and environmental sectors. You will leave this conference with a greater appreciation for Mother Nature, a drive to improve your health, and learn various tools to make a difference in your community. Whether you are super interested in health, the planet, public policy, equity, or harnessing a sustainable future, there is truly something here for everyone.”

The duo envisions this two-day event, featuring insights from eight changemakers in the fields of health, environment, and public policy, as an initial step for attendees to improve their relationships with the environment. They hope the conference prompts participants to realize that in crises like climate change, we shouldn't remain stagnant but rather be equipped with the tools to proactively protect both the planet and our own health.

Come join Katie and Reese, alongside the entire StFX Health Society, at the 2nd Annual Health Conference, 'Roots to Results: Cultivating Environmental Health Equity', on March 22nd and 23rd in the Barrick Auditorium. All are welcome, and the event is free of charge!

What is a Seedy Sunday?

It’s that time of year again. What time of year? Ah, yes. Spring. The time when sidewalks start to get a little easier to traverse on. The time when the sun shines just a little bit brighter, and when the days get a little bit longer. What a great feeling that is.

But I feel something else. Something just below the earth. Something jumping, skipping, full of energy, ready to burst. What could it be? Seeds! We LOVE seeds. Spring is the time for new beginnings, and what’s more symbolic than, a seed, from which new things grow? Are you, like me, anticipating spring and the newness it brings? Are you a seed lover, a plant lover, looking for your share of friendly flora?

Look no further than the farmers market, where Seedy Sunday will be taking place on the 10th of March 2024, from 10 am to 1 pm. I was curious to learn more about this event, so I reached out to Ethan Copp, one of the student facilitators, and a fourth year CLEN student. Here is what he had to say.

What is a Seedy Sunday?

      It is a community event designed to encourage seed swapping and selling, the sharing of knowledge, and the sharing and conserving of heirloom seeds. Swapping and selling is when people give away, trade, and sell seeds, which facilitates seed sharing and improves community access to seeds. The knowledge shared includes farmers and community members sharing knowledge on how to grow gardens, providing farming tips, and sharing knowledge about the local environment and how to save seeds. Finally, heirloom seeds have been saved and passed down through generations of farmers and gardeners. They are essential to conserve and share as they are not cultivated in conventional industrial agricultural settings today. This is essential for biodiversity and the promotion of food sovereignty, both key for the mitigation and adaptation against climate change.

Have you been to a Seedy Sunday in the past? Can you tell us a bit about it?

      I have been to the Seedy Sunday event in 2023. The event's theme was biodiversity, which was reflected in various educational materials, kids' activities, students, and vendors. It is similar to the farmers market as it is hosted at the same venue but with a different spin due to the seed focus. The atmosphere was great as my friends were helping host the event, so I got to chat. A student musician was playing, and a group of young highland dancers from McLeod School of Highland Dance did a dance demo. There is a little something for everyone, whether you are a foodie, a big plant person, love music, or are passionate about learning. I personally found out about a lot of neat groups across Nova Scotia working on biodiversity. I did some networking and swapped some flower seeds I had for herbs instead. 

 What should students expect at the upcoming Seedy Sunday in March of 2024?

      Students, should they decide to attend the Seedy Sunday event on March 10th, should expect to enjoy local food and drinks, get some houseplants or seeds to grow one, learn more about seeds and gardening, especially food production in small spaces (sprouts, microgreens, windowsill gardens, small outdoor gardens), and network with gardening related and other neat organizations from across Nova Scotia.

Why should students attend the upcoming Seedy Sunday?

      Students should come out to Seedy Sunday to network, get involved in the community and learn more about using tools for food sovereignty to address climate change. Seedy Sunday on March 10th will be a fun and great place to start a journey into the world of food sovereignty, gardening, and community in Nova Scotia. 

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Need some tips on how to get there? Go with friends! Go solo for a challenge! Here’s another idea, ask your CAs or Community Educators if they would run a plant program! It is the perfect opportunity to get some sunlight and fresh air if the weather permits. Make a seed happy today. We hope to see YOU at Seedy Sunday.

African Heritage Month: A Recap of All You Missed

This month of February marked the annual celebration of African Heritage Month, and the StFX Black Student Advising Office had a number of engaging and captivating events to mark the occasion. The provincial theme for African Heritage Month this year is ‘Our Smiles, Our Joy, Our Resilience as African Nova Scotians.’ The theme honors the African Nova Scotian community's diversity, vibrancy, and resilience, highlighting their contributions to the cultural and social fabric of Nova Scotia and beyond. It promotes unity, empowerment, and recognition of their unique experiences and strengths.

African Heritage Month (AHM) is a time dedicated to celebrating and honoring the rich cultural heritage, achievements, and contributions of people of African descent worldwide. StFX began its celebration of the African Heritage with The Town Flag Raising. The Town Flag Raising acknowledges the struggles and triumphs of African Nova Scotians, honors their resilience and perseverance, and fosters a sense of belonging and pride among community members. Overall, the flag-raising ceremony serves as a meaningful gesture of recognition and support for the African Nova Scotian community, reaffirming the values of diversity, equity, and inclusion within the town or municipality.  

Not long after, on February 1, 2024, the Town of Antigonish hosted the official opening of African Heritage Month to commemorate and celebrate the achievements and contributions of African Nova

Scotians, as well as to unveil the month's poster and theme. According to Akua Amankwah-Poku, StFX Black Student Advisor, "it was a wonderful community event where many people came out to celebrate AHM, from elementary and high school students, community members, university students, and staff."  

A film showing of Ninth Floor at the StFX library quickly followed. Ninth Floor is a 2015 biopic that accurately captures one of Canada's largest student occupations in the country's history. In 1969, a group of students occupied a ninth-floor computer lab in protest of their Montreal university's allegedly racist administration. This film recounted the events that led up to the occupation and the events. After the movie there was an interesting conversation about the education system and racism and the effect this had on students of African heritage.

On February 7, the StFX Black Student Advising Office hosted a speaking by Margaret L. States at the Keating Center Conference Room A. Margaret gave an insightful and captivating speaking centered around her book, Gooseberries Have Thorns, “which chronicles everyday experiences, relationships, and major events in the lives of Maggie’s ancestors in the eighteenth and nineteenth centuries. The narrative focuses primarily on Maggie and how she navigates various circumstances in racialized Nova Scotia in the early twentieth century.” Despite the heavy snow, many showed up virtually thanks to the hybrid nature of the event.  

The rest of the month was filled with interactive sessions and activities. From the dinner to the paint and sip as well as drumming sessions coupled with the dance classes, this year’s theme of ‘Our Smiles, Our Joy, Our Resilience as African Nova Scotians’ was indeed a reality. The Advising Office still has one more event in store for us: The Black student Banquet which promises to be a time of fun and healthy interactions. The gala will give Black students an opportunity to dress up and attend a banquet that celebrates Black culture and excellence. There will be small activities, educational pieces, music, and culturally relevant food. Not only is this a good way to end the month, but also an avenue to reflect on the month’s events and honor the rich cultural heritage, achievements, and contributions of Africans worldwide!

This year’s celebration of African Heritage Month did not fall below expectation at StFX. From the academic sessions to the social ones, everything was geared towards one purpose: ‘Our Smiles, Our Joy, Our Resilience as African Nova Scotians.’ The poster and images from the month's activities may be found on Instagram at @stfxblackstudentadvising.

From Antigonish to Kingston: The Schwartz JDCC Journey

The Schwartz School of Business from St. Francis Xavier University embarked on an unforgettable journey to the prestigious JDCC competition, showcasing their skills and unity on a national stage. With excitement and determination, forty students journeyed from Halifax to Toronto before finally reaching Kingston, where the competition awaited.

Looking back on the trip, team members shared their highlights and insights, providing a glimpse into the experience. For many, the competition itself stood out as the highlight. Despite facing challenges, the teamwork and sportsmanship among teammates made every moment memorable. "Although we didn't win all our games," one member noted, "everyone remained fair and made it enjoyable.” Many of the team members, being first-time competitors at JDCC, were impressed by the level of camaraderie and mutual respect exhibited by participants from various schools and backgrounds. "I had no idea what to expect," admitted one member, "but the school spirit and friendly atmosphere were incredible." Interacting with peers from across the country added an extra layer of excitement to the experience.

Preparation played a vital role in the team's success. Through rigorous training sessions, they honed their skills and strengthened their bonds as a team. "Our practices allowed us to build ourselves as a team," said one member. Bonding events such as mixers Spindrift also played a fundamental role in establishing a collective mindset. The team’s dance for the competition (which can be found on YouTube) shows the group’s collective spirit and willingness to give their all. The transition from strangers to friends was marked by shared challenges and victories, fostering a sense of unity that went beyond just the competition.

The competition itself was a whirlwind of activity, offering members the chance to showcase their talents. "From the moment we arrived in Kingston, there was always something happening," recalled one member. In the Business Strategy discipline, the Schwartz School of Business clinched a first-place win. "Winning the Business Strategy discipline was a major achievement," shared a proud member. The triumph was a testament to the collective effort and dedication of the team.

Beyond the competition, the trip provided opportunities for exploration and bonding, leaving lasting memories for all involved. The closing ceremony and following ball allowed the team to celebrate their hard work and solidify the friendships they had made during their time in Kingston. Reflecting on their journey, members offered encouragement to future participants. "JDCC is an incredible learning opportunity," affirmed one member. Beyond the competition, JDCC offers a platform for networking and relationship-building, fostering connections across the country.

The Schwartz School of Business' trip to JDCC was a testament to teamwork, perseverance, and excellence. From the thrill of competition to the friendships forged along the way, the journey left an indelible mark on all who participated. As they look to the future, members carry with them the lessons learned and the connections made during this unforgettable experience.

St. FX Model United Nations Society's Adventure in Halifax

The snowstorm that hit the East Coast this weekend has made national headlines as Antigonish, and surrounding counties were pummeled by nearly 100 cm of snow. Locals and St. FX students alike hunkered down for the weekend, with a few brave individuals braving the weather to stock up on essentials. The town spent their weekend building snowmen, sledding and enjoying their time indoors with friends and family. However, one school group had a rather different experience during this record-breaking storm.

Members of St. FX’s Model United Nations Society left Antigonish early Friday afternoon heading to Halifax for the East Coast Model United Nations (ECMUN) conference that is hosted annually by Saint Mary’s University. The weather was beginning to show signs of concern, visibility was low, and the roads were icy. Upon arrival in Halifax the team was informed that as a result of inclement weather, the conference had been cancelled and that SMU’s campus would be closed the following day. Tired from their journey, the team was frustrated and concerned that their preparation for the conference would go to waste. Despite this, the society decided to make the most of their unexpected weekend in Halifax.

Sheltered by the Four Seasons in the heart of downtown, the team had an excellent home base from which they could explore the city. A group dinner at Jack Astor’s on the first night followed by dancing at the Basement of the Shoe certainly set the tone for what would be an incredible weekend. During the day, team members explored the shopping districts, cafes and the farmers market in downtown Halifax (at least those that remained open in spite of the snow). The Bicycle Thief, The Stubborn Goat, and Latitude 44 were chosen as dinner spots for the team on the second night. After satisfying their appetites, the group did a bar crawl, starting at Durty Nelly’s then onto the iconic Dome Nightclub and lastly Pacifico, a bar housed in a converted bank building. On Sunday after a weekend filled with activity, the society decided to unwind, watching the new Mean Girls remake in theatres together.

Ultimately, the unexpected weekend in Halifax became a pivotal moment for the St. FX Model UN Society. Despite the initial disappointment of the conference cancellation, they seized the opportunity to explore, connect, and make memories together. Whether it was posing for group photos, watching the Grammy’s in bed, or enjoying a swim at the hotel pool, the team embraced every moment. While important lessons would have been learned at the conference, the bonding experience in Halifax is just as crucial for success at the upcoming NMUN conference in New York in March. Friendships were strengthened, new bonds were formed, and the spirit of resilience prevailed, proving that even in the face of adversity, there is always room for adventure.

History of the X-Ring

December 3rd: X-Ring Day. A highly anticipated (if not, the most anticipated) day for members of the StFX community every year. As the alleged third most recognized ring in the world, only following the Super Bowl ring and the Papal ring, the X-Ring holds strong significance for those who have attended StFX. It represents Xaverian spirit, community, the hard work of students, and the accomplishments they have made while at university.

Prior to the 1940s, a pin was designed every year for each graduating class at StFX. However, it was in 1942, during the Second World War, when the X-Ring was born. Senior Class President Willie MacDougall created the iconic ring that would forever hold tradition from that moment on.

In 1958, the first ever X-Ring ceremony was held. Beginning in the MacKay Room, the ceremony moved to the basement of the Chapel and eventually its main space. It is now held in the Keating Centre each year as a result of the growing number of senior students in every graduating class. It was in 1982 when the ceremony was decided to be held each year on December 3rd, the Feast of St. Francis Xavier.

At the end of every X-Ring ceremony, X-Ring recipients tap their new ring on a wooden kneeler from the Chapel when exiting the Keating Centre. This tradition continued from when the ceremony was held in the Chapel, where X-Ring recipients would tap their ring on the wooden pews.

As a result of being copyrighted, the X-Ring is exclusive to only graduates and senior students of the university. Only those who have worked to achieve their rings may purchase one. However, one honorary X-Ring is given out each year to a deserving member of the Xaverian community.

The X-Ring represents the close, tight-knit community of StFX and the continuous connections that will be made with other X Alumni throughout the years. Years after graduating, whether you are still here living in Antigonish or on the other side of the world, your X-Ring is a token that will forever hold your identity as a member of the Xaverian community.

Congratulations to all X-Ring recipients this year!

Work Cited:

https://www.stfx.ca/student-services/support-services/chaplaincy/events-activities/x-ring

https://www.alumni.stfx.ca/s/650/standard.aspx?sid=650&gid=1&pgid=890

https://theu.ca/history-of-the-xring

https://www.stfx.ca/alumni/x-ring#:~:text=You%20can%20identify%20them%20easily,recognized%20ring%20in%20the%20world.

INN-TRODUCING THE NEW: NAVIGATING THE CHANGE AT THE GOLDEN X INN

I think most students can agree that the Inn is one of the best places to be on campus and in Antigonish in general. Not only is it fun with great drinks (especially the beergria), but the energy is also unrivalled on a Wing night or a Friday theme night. It has been deeply missed this semester and I know many StFX students have been eagerly anticipating its reopening. The excitement of this new chapter, however, has been heavily overshadowed by critiques of the recent renovation for the Student’s Union.

Despite the ongoing speculation and debate surrounding the Inn's changes, it is crucial to acknowledge the dedicated efforts of the staff and bar managers who have worked tirelessly to keep the establishment operational. Their commitment to maintaining a welcoming and inclusive environment has been evident in the countless hours spent addressing concerns and adjusting needs to meet the community's needs. 

The benefits of reopening might not be apparent to all students, but they are not lost to the staff. Sam Robinson, one of the Inn's bussers, expressed his excitement for the return of "real wing nights," which has more than one meaning to many employees. While students lost their favourite Wednesday hangout spot, many of the staff reliant on their paycheques from the Inn, to support themselves, had to make do. With less events going on, the staff had their hours considerably cut to make renovations possible.

The Inn was reliant on the involvement of students at the McKay Room events to keep the staff working. Security Coordinator Cameran Macmillan noted how much the Inn staff appreciated everyone who tried to attend pop up wing nights. Supporting the Inn does not just support the Student’s Union, but the people that work for it as well. 

The transition to the McKay room involved a lot of coordination. From set up and tear down to the revision to be successful, it was a huge change not just for students, but staff as well. It was difficult for new employees, and for those recently promoted to adjust to their new positions in an environment where supplies and procedures were not standard. Bar Manager Shani Darrell sought to acknowledge, “the Golden X Inn Staff for their ability to meet such adaptations,” and commend their commitment the Inn team. The re-opening is not just the bar being back, but a return home for employees.

Instead of being angry that the campus’ favourite spot has changed, I believe we should take a moment to appreciate the time that has been invested in making it that much better. A large sum of money has gone into making improvements to ensure our Wednesday nights are safe and enjoyable as possible. It is easy to harp on the negative, but it seems to me that there is a lot of good things to be celebrated as our semester comes to an end. Being a member of the Inn’s team and speaking with my co-workers, I have been able to come up with some highlights. 

To begin, as Cameran put it, “the 360 bar will be a hit.” For students who have yet to see the renovations, I am certain you will not be disappointed. The space is more sophisticated but maintains “subtle nods to the old Inn.” The bar’s position and size will “cut down on wait times,” Sam says. Bartender Brooke Lawrie noted how the shift of the shooter bar to the back corner is more accessible, making it easier to grab a quick drink and keep dancing than at the old Inn. The higher demand for service has also ensured that staff stay busy. In the words of, busser, Cole Bielski “there is definitely a lot more running around,” which is a welcome change at the Inn after the past semester’s lull. Students can also look forward to new events including a study night on Tuesdays, multicultural events, comedy shows as well as a continuation of wing nights, trivia, and sex toy bingo. 

I, in no way, look to undermine the concerns of students regarding the consequences of the renovations. Constructive feedback is valuable, and the ongoing dialogue allows us to work collaboratively towards enhancing the Inn experience for everyone. But I think it is important for us to appreciate the collective efforts that have gone into this endeavour and continue fostering open communication to build a stronger, more positive, and more resilient community around the Inn. 

A Conversation with Alan Syliboy: A Childhood in Mi’kma’ki

On Thursday November 16th, students and members of the community gathered in Barrack Auditorium in Mulroney Hall to attend a unique event hosted by the German 200 class and the StFX German Society. The event was a conversation with Alan Syliboy about his experience and perspective growing up in Mi’kma’ki during the 1950s. The conversation was led by fourth-year students Maia Schisler and Gianluca Abrignani.

            Alan Syliboy is a visual and musical artist who was born and raised in Millbrook First Nation, where he still lives to this day. He is well-known for his visual artwork inspired by the Mi’kmaq petroglyph tradition, as well as his talented band, Alan Syliboy & The Thundermakers. Alan has also written multiple children’s books which have all been translated to German by StFX’s German classes. In fact, he just released his newest children’s book, When the Owl Calls Your Name.

            During the conversation, Mr. Syliboy recalled the memories and individuals that had a significant impact on his life growing up. Living in a community with only 30-40 houses, he grew up having a close relationship with his younger brother, Dale, whom he remains close with to this day. His grandmother, whom he described as brilliant and someone who always had her heart in the right place, was also a strong role model in his life.

            When asked about how he got into artwork as a career, he explained how he always drew growing up and consistently got a positive response from others, which served as a big encouragement for him to continue. Mr. Syliboy attended the Nova Scotia College of Art and Design and stated that his goal was not necessarily to graduate, but to gain experience. According to Syliboy, a coffee shop was practically his classroom; he would spend hours of his day there speaking with artists from all around the world.

            This is one of multiple visits that Alan Syliboy has made to StFX over the past several years. On September 29th, the National Day for Truth and Reconciliation, StFX welcomed Alan Syliboy & The Thundermakers for a concert that was organized by the German Department. Members of the band include: Alan Syliboy, Evan Syliboy, Hubert Francis, Lukas Pearse, Joanne Hatfield, Aaron Prosper, and Matt Gallant.

You may be wondering why it was a German class that hosted this event, and why they, in particular, are the ones who are actively involved with Indigenous members of the community. Marlis Lade, a German professor at StFX, explained during the event that everyone had a role to play in continuing the contributions towards reconciliation.

Overall, the conversation with Alan Syliboy was incredibly engaging to witness and enjoyed by both the students and members of the community who attended.

Works Cited:

https://alansyliboy.ca/band/

https://alansyliboy.ca/about/

Best Buddies Society: Friendships That Will Last a Lifetime

On November 25, the StFX Best Buddies Society hosted a Christmas party in Coady Dennis Hall. Those who attended enjoyed a Christmas movie, cookie decorating, ornament creating, and colouring. The event was a great way to spend the afternoon getting into the Christmas spirit before the hustle and bustle of the holiday season begins.

Best Buddies Canada is an organization that builds friendships between individuals with and without intellectual disabilities. Buddies are paired with one another based on similar interests and meet up at least once a month for some quality one-on-one time.  The organization runs programs across the country in different elementary schools, middle schools, high schools, as well as post-secondary institutions—including here at StFX. Best Buddies is an excellent way to get involved with the school and promote inclusion and acceptance within the community.

The Christmas party was the second group event that the society has hosted this year. On October 29, the Best Buddies society celebrated Halloween with a costume party that consisted of a movie, colouring, and treats. Returning members reunited with their buddies and new members were able to be introduced to one another.

I spoke with a member of the Best Buddies Society, Caroline Kelly, a second-year who has been an active volunteer with Best Buddies Canada since high school. Ms. Kelly spoke about her inspiration for becoming involved with Best Buddies, sharing that “my older sister was involved with Best Buddies in high school so that’s how I got to know the club. I thought it was a cool way to involve myself within my own school community.” She also explained how it can be easy for individuals with intellectual disabilities to feel ostracized in a school setting and wanted to create an inclusive environment for all.

Furthermore, when asked why students at StFX should volunteer with the organization, Kelly explained that it is a great way to get to be involved with the university in a hands-on and personal way. What she loves about Best Buddies at StFX is how you are not only getting to know students at the school, but also individuals within the Antigonish community. “It’s a wider, broader sense of community,” Ms. Kelly stated, “there are so many different people you get to meet. It’s a fun way to get to know people and it feels like you’re involving yourself in a different way compared to other clubs.”

If you are interested in getting involved with the university and members of the Antigonish community, applying to the Best Buddies Society is an excellent way to do so. The meaningful memories you will make and the solid friendships you will form will last a lifetime.

We The North: Madeleine Redfern Shares her Vision for Nunavut’s Future

The average Canadian will likely travel down south, a few times even, before they even think about making a journey up to Canada’s North. But while Nunavut often feels like a far-away land (at least, from the perspective of those who live a day’s trip away from the border), former Iqaluit mayor Madeleine Redfern’s work demonstrates that this feeling of disconnect need not be the case.

On Monday, February 27th, the Mulroney Institute hosted a luncheon to welcome Madeleine Redfern onto StFX campus. Elder Knowledge Keeper Kerry Prosper attended the event, which opened with a land acknowledgement. Organized by Dr. Richard Isnor and Dr. Anna Zuschlag from the Mulroney Institute, the gathering allowed for students and faculty to ask the former mayor questions that enriched their understanding of Nunavut-specific policy issues.

Throughout the lecture, the need to build bridges, whether they be between the different levels of government or between the various isolated communities found throughout the territory, was repeatedly emphasized. As the current Chief Operating Officer at CanArtic Inuit Networks, Madeleine Redfern can be considered a pioneer in developing Nunavut’s fibre-optic connectivity. Such a project will have a transformative effect on Nunavut’s future, and broadening the territory’s internet access is a necessary and foundational step to fuel the development of Nunavut’s infrastructure.

Second-year PGOV student Rory Jakubec brought her background assisting with Dr. Peter Kikkert’s research into the conversation. In describing her experience at the 2022 Search and Rescue (SAR) Roundtable in Iqaluit, Jakubec stressed the pressing need for faster and more efficient communication channels throughout the territories. Redfern shared Jakubec’s concern and remarked that when faulty connectivity becomes an impediment to successful search and rescue missions, the project of building better fibre-optic infrastructure becomes “the difference between life and death.”

However, Redfern also spoke on the fact that “communication is more than fibre optics.” After all, people, not wires nor radio waves, come together and make up the committees and teams committed to problem-solving and policy building. To make her point, she brought up the fact that the public’s access to internet connection (by means of libraries, for example) was closed off during the Covid-19 Pandemic. While the internet itself didn’t go anywhere, coordination between different governmental departments was needed before the public good could become safely accessible again.

Madeleine Redfern has taken on various roles that have improved her community in countless ways. To name just a few of her accomplishments, she is the President of the Tungasuvvingat Inuit Community Centre, co-Founder of the Ottawa Inuit Headstart, and the first Inuk to clerk for the Supreme Court. Her passion for improving the lives of others allows us to enjoy a feeling of optimistic trust for our politicians.

Redfern’s career is also a testament to the value of having politicians who reflect the demographic they serve. As PGOV Professor Dr. Peter Kikkert pointed out, government services work best when they are designed by people who have a link to the community. If Nunavut is to continue developing its social and digital infrastructure along the promising trajectory Redfern has helped place it on, there is a need to invest in the training and employment of as many Inuk people as possible. As Redfern stressed, there is currently no master Inuk employment plan, and this lack of coordination limits effective policy-building and reduces it to mere “separation and less synergy.”

“Nunavut is like Quebec,” says Redfern. In the sense that both regions are distinct from the rest of the country and consequently require unique and creative problem-solving to meet their needs. According to Redfern, “there’s no reason for us to be as poor as we are.” She calls for including educated, skilled and capable Inuk living in Nunavut in government projects. Through collaboration and adequate support, Redfern hopes to mitigate the high crime rate, poor water quality, insufficient healthcare, and other impediments to the development of Nunavut’s infrastructure stemming from a long history of colonization and colonial policies. These changes cannot come soon enough when Nunavut expects unprecedented population growth over the next ten years. If a population explosion were to spring onto Nunavut’s infrastructure as it exists now, the weight of a population boom would surely collapse it.

Spencer Johnson Band, a third-year PGOV student, prompted Redfern to speak on her role as Advisor to the Canadian Nuclear Laboratories. “Nunavut’s future can expect transformative technologies,” says Redfern, and federal investments into nuclear energy play a crucial role in actualizing this vision. Additionally, considering Russia’s current expansionist energy, the federal government is directing special and heightened attention to reinforcing Canada’s northern defensive line.

If we want Nunavut’s fibre-optic connectivity and nuclear projects to improve and for the territory to be prepared for an incoming population boom, issues of poverty and inadequate social services that currently impede progress must be addressed. Redfern stresses that while ambitious projects are a priority, work is required in order to pave a smooth runway for the roll-out of such development. The North’s future is cause for optimism, but only if this optimism is matched with hard work, creativity, and passion. That is why we owe gratitude and admiration to a visionary like Madeleine Redfern.

16th Annual German Day

Every year, the German 100 and 200 classes come together to celebrate German Day. The event began in the early 2000s under the guise of Professor Lade, the German professor at the university. The day consist of student-led presentations and many fun activities.

This year, German Day will be taking place Friday, March 31. The event will begin at 3:00 p.m. and will include presentations, a coffee break, and a game of Kahoot. During the coffee break, German pastries will be served for all to enjoy. The activities will be taking place in Coady’s Desmond Oval.

Many distinguished guests are set to partake in the day of festivities, including a representative for the German Embassy in Ottawa. All students are invited to attend. The German classes have spent many a week preparing for the day, which is more than certain to be an interesting one.

The day comes just on the heels of Multilingual Day, another fun day of activities surrounding language and language learning. Both events will celebrate the language courses offered at the university. For all those interested in taking language courses, the events should be informative and encouraging. If able, all should attend.

Student Research Day 2023

Student Research Day is fast approaching, with many interesting poster presentations and oral presentations scheduled, Student Research Day 2023 should be a fun one! Every year, the university hosts a Student Research Day, typically in March towards the end of the academic semester. The aim of the day is to display the research students have been conducting throughout the academic year and throughout the summer with professors. Students from any and all departments have the opportunity to present their research and their findings, either through a poster presentation or through a ten-minute oral presentation.

Students with poster presentations are asked to stay at their poster for the evening and other students, faculty members, and members of the public can come and ask them questions regarding their research. Students with oral presentations will be given ten minutes to present their research topic, findings, and all other relevant information.

For the 2022-2023 academic year, Student Research Day will be this Thursday, March 23, from 6 p.m. to 7:30 p.m. The event will take place in Mulroney Hall, with presentations taking place in three auditoriums simultaneously, beginning with an opening statement by Dr. Richard Isnor. In auditorium 2030, health-related research presentations will take place. The policy and humanities presentations will take place in the Art Gallery and the science presentations will be in auditorium 3024. At the end of the evening, there will be a prize draw for all student researchers as well as closing statements by members of the faculty and administration.

In recent years, there have not been many student research days due to COVID. The last few Student Research Days have been given virtually, and it is safe to say faculty and the administration must be happy the event is being given in person this year.

After Student Research Day, students can stay in Mulroney Hall to attend Elder Albert Marshall’s talk on “Etuaptmumk: Two-Eyed Seeing.” The talk will begin at 7:30 p.m. and is to take place in auditorium 4032. The talk will specifically address Two-Eyed Seeing in the context of climate change. It is sure to be an interesting talk, and all are encouraged to attend!

For more information, you can visit the StFX website’s student research page. If you get the chance, come support fellow students in their presentations. Who knows? You might find yourself inspired to conduct your own research project!

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Appreciating the StFX Art Gallery’s Newest Exhibit: There is No One Story of Black Girlhood

Students looking to experience a unique and immersive display of artwork need to look no further than the second floor of Mulroney Hall.

In line with Black History Month’s desire to highlight and make space for Black Canadians, the art exhibit “There is No One Story of Black Girlhood” showcases a collection of Rebecca Fisk’s eleven self-portraits highlight the achievements, stories, and culture of African Nova Scotians.

While she was born in Calgary, Rebecca Fisk grew up just a few hours from Antigonish in Mahone Bay, Nova Scotia. Fisk’s self-portraits reflect her experience growing up in a rural, predominantly white community. In one piece, Fisk looks defiantly at the viewer and pulls apart an oreo, presumably in reference to the disparaging slang “oreo” which Fisk describes as “a term used to describe someone who is thought of as being black on the outside and white on the inside.” In another piece, Fisk is again looking directly at the audience and enjoying a bite of watermelon in a piece titled “Watermelon in the Afternoon.” Again, Fisk subverts a racist trope and calls out the tremendous social and historical weight placed on black children.

Throughout Fisk’s self-portraits, there is a theme of resilience in the face of stereotypes, racism, and isolation growing up as a young black girl in rural Nova Scotia. According to the artist, this project is “a cathartic [...confrontation] of the racial prejudice that I have experienced in a healthy way. [...] The images also confront the viewer, forcing them to question their own biases.”

Fisk received her Bachelor of Fine Arts from NSCAD in 1992 and went on to earn her master’s in fine arts from the University of Saskatchewan in 1997. Fans of her work can find it all over Nova Scotia, as it has been exhibited in the Art Gallery of Nova Scotia, Lunenburg Academy, and the Dalhousie Art Gallery. Interestingly, Fisk is a High School art teacher in Chester Basin, Nova Scotia.

The exhibit is being held from February 9th to March 25th in the StFX Art Gallery (located on the second floor of Mulroney Hall) during the afternoons Wednesday to Friday. There is no need to make an appointment or pay an admission fee, but visitors are strongly encouraged to wear masks while visiting the gallery.

On Thursday, February 16th, students are welcome to attend a zoom webinar and hear Fisk comment on her work and intended messaging. More information on how to access the link are available on the StFX Art Gallery website. Additionally, special thanks are due to the Jeannine Deveau Education Equity Endownment Fund and Harley and Wendy MacCaull for sponsoring the exhibition.

It goes without being said that the importance of appreciating Black artwork and artists endures beyond the month of February. By reserving a space solely for Black artists and their artwork, the community and student body gain an appreciation for the rich culture and strength of the Black community that hopefully serves as a springboard for further interest throughout the rest of the year.

The exhibit “There is No One Story of Black Girlhood” is a testament to the importance, beauty, and uniqueness of Black artwork. If you happen to have even thirty minutes to spare between midterms, be sure to check it out.

Boygenius Are Back: A Review of Their Three Song Sampler

If you happen to follow Rolling Stone Magazine on any of their social media platforms, you likely experienced an onslaught of promotional images of the music supergroup “boygenius”, comprised of members Phoebe Bridgers, Julien Baker, and Lucy Dacus. The band was featured on the cover of the magazine in February, and the images that plastered the internet might have been familiar to those who were around in the early nineties, or are otherwise avid fans of the band Nirvana, as boygenius recreated their 1994 Rolling Stone cover and aesthetics of the famed photoshoot. 

While many fans viewed the photoshoot as a fun way for boygenius to reinterpret the famous cover, some of the comments on the Rolling Stone’s accounts were negative. One common theme being that many people are still unfamiliar with the band, and with just the one EP under their belt, some felt that their comparison to such a famed band as Nirvana was unjustified. Perhaps many readers do not know who boygenius are either. Well, you’re in luck. The group has just released a three-song sampler in lieu of their first full-length album, “The Record”, and now is the perfect time to start listening to their music.  

For some background, the band is democratically constructed without a distinguishable frontwoman, but the most recognisable name of the group may be Phoebe Bridgers, who has permeated the cultural zeitgeist the most significantly. Her dreamy indie-pop songs infused with raw, and often depressing lyricism have resulted in sold-out arena tours around the world, and collaborations with the likes of Taylor Swift, SZA, Paul McCartney, and the 1975.  

In 2016, Bridgers befriended artists Julien Baker, an indie-rock musician known for her confessional songs with themes of addiction and religion, and Lucy Dacus, a folk-rocker armed with brutally honest depictions of heartbreak, and who, inevitably, has become a mainstay on Spotify’s “sad girl starter pack” playlist. This friendship resulted in their eponymous EP in 2018, which harmonized their three distinct flavours, and secured them into a “supergroup” status. Now, five years later, the band has reunited. Boygenius are back in town. 

The first of their new songs, “$20”, further confirms the group’s nineties alt-rock influences. With its energetic guitar riffs, and imagery of all-night drives, motorcycles, and running out of gas, time, and money, this is the anthem for going on a road trip with your best friends. The track demands you yell along with the Baker’s vocals in unison, and the climax even more so: a satisfying scream from Bridgers, asking “CAN YOU GIVE ME 20 DOLLARS?” Add this song to your summer playlist now, you’ll thank me later.  

Boygenius takes a melancholic turn with their second single “Emily I’m Sorry”. As the title suggests, this Bridgers-dominant track is apologetic and directed at a former lover, Emily. The lyricism represents the frantic negotiating that comes with a failed relationship: “Just take me back to Montréal / I'll get a real job, you'll go back to school / We can burn out in the freezing cold / And just get lost”. Dreamy and repentant, this track ultimately weeps over the kind of love that one gets lost in, for better or worse. 

Rounding out the sampler is the Dacus-led “True Blue”, a term that can be defined as one who is staunch and faithful, and this is the kind of love that is celebrated in the song: “I remember who I am when I’m with you / Your love is tough, your love is tried and true-blue". With ethereal guitars and harmonies from Baker and Bridgers, the composition evokes a sense of peace. The imagery of heat, sun, and summer, especially in opposition with the cold: “You say you’re a winter b**** / But summers in your blood”, thaws out the melancholy of the previous track and makes this depiction of love even sweeter. Boygenius’ “The Record” is out March 31st.  

My Truth

Growing up in a dominated white society has opened my eyes to many truths.

First, I learnt little about my rich African history and heritage
Slavery started in the year...
And Martin Luther King was a... Were the only topics that I remember
Black History, my history-what history?
Nothing deeper, just the same recycled lessons taught over and over again.

Second, I think people sometimes forget that it is still wrong to make assumptions
Like when I speak up and people think I shouldn't because they think I’m not Black
Or when teachers assume that as the only Black student, I’d be okay representing the mass.

Wait, what did you say in class again?
Slavery started in the year...
And Martin Luther King was a...
Because anyone can repeat that; I learnt nothing.

Third,
And the most important truth
Is that I have to keep keeping on
So even though
I still have to deal with racial slurs and racism at school

And I still have to deal with
Sorry
You’re too Black for the white kids
And
You’re way too white for the Black kids

I cannot; I will not be silent
My voice matters; I matter
And it stops mattering the day I become silent
I will continue to walk on the path to my destiny I will continue to live my truth.

Grab your Dancing Shoes!

Over the next couple of months, Antigonish residents can expect several dance recitals and competitions in the Antigonish community. For those looking to check out some local talent, the Antigonish Creative Dance Association will host its annual student choreography showcase on the 25th of February. Expect ballet, hip pop and contemporary pieces and mix of solos, duets, and small groups.

The dance team recently competed in the Atlantic Collegiate Dance Competition. This event was their first dance competition in over three years, since Covid prevented previous competitions from taking place. The event was hosted at the University of New Brunswick, with dancers from across the Atlantic region competing at the university level. The StFX dance team performed both solos and group pieces, with both Isabelle and Makayla winning awards in their solo categories. The dance team also performed a halftime dance at the X-men's basketball game.

If you happen to be staying over the summer, be sure to check out the annual Highland Games happening July 2nd to the 9th. Last year’s festival included parades, dance championships, kilted golf tournaments, Gaelic language and tradition workshops, and tug-of-war competitions. This year’s events are not yet finalized. The dance competitions will be at the pre-premier, open premier, and open championship levels, with the youngest category being 10-12, and the oldest at 19 and over. One of the annual competitions is organized by the Antigonish Highland Dance Association (AHDA), an organization with the goal of promoting and preserving highland dance in the town, they have been hosting annual competitions since 1863.

Visitors can expect performances of the Highland Fling, the Sword Dance, the Seann Tribuhas, and the Flora Mcdonald’s Fancy. Awards like the Mary Dundas Memorial Award, New Zealand’s Pre-premier, Wilena Macinnis Penny Award, and the Florence Macmillian Memorial Award are all up for grabs. If you are interested, the festival will be looking for volunteers to help run the Games. Last year, there was also a youth artwork and writing contest for children aged 5-13. Winners of the contest won a free family pass to the Games.

An Awesome Wave

The band alt-J’s debut album, An Awesome Wave, is a musically beautiful representation of European music at that time combined with the unique sound of the growing indie and alternative music genres. Probably stemming from this album, alt-J has a reputation of making scatter-brained music that is not always received positively by listeners. However, each song on the album makes for easy and entertaining listening and regardless of the variety from one song to the other, they still manage to all meet in the middle for a matching aura on the album. Another characteristic of the album that I found very interesting is the cover art. For a little background information, alt-J is the computer key shortcut for delta. While facing a deadline for this album, the band went to google images to find some album art that related to their symbol/logo, the delta. The image on this album cover is the world's largest delta, located on the border of India and Bangladesh. The psychedelic appearance of the delta comes from overlapping three different images taken at different times over the same area. The keyboard player loved the idea of this psychedelic cover art because it was fitting to the style of music they were producing and when looking at the album cover, it was hard for most people to figure out what it actually is. This matched how they viewed their ‘hard-to-pin-down’ abstract style of music.

 The lead off on the album is “Intro”, a majority instrumental track that gets heavy into the drums and guitar chords right off the bat. One lyric from this song goes on about a ‘nod to the canon’ and summarises the idea of this song that it is a ‘nod’ or an acknowledgment of all the musical influence we encounter in our lives. “Tessellate” is about trying to get over a girl by meeting a new one and ‘tessellating’ with her. Leading off with a morbid-esque piano intro that goes into some hard drumbeats, this song stood out to me because of the story and how well it cooperates with the sounds. The singer then goes on to say, ‘triangles are my favourite shape, three points where two lines meet’, talking about the conflicting love triangle he finds himself in as he tries to forget the first girl. My two favourite songs on the album, and easily my favourites by alt-J are “Breezeblocks” and “Ms.” “Breezeblocks” is actually based off of the children's book ‘Where the Wild Things Are’ and plays a part in why I enjoy the song so much; this was a consistent bedtime read when I was growing up and when the movie adaptation came out, really, traumatised younger me. The main premise of “Breezeblocks” is loving someone so much that you want to hurt them, ‘Please don’t go, I'll eat you whole. I love you so.’ Similar to the book and the movie, this song starts off nice and soft, slow, but builds to a heavy and percussive chorus that repeats the same thoughts over and over, like getting stuck in the climax of your emotions. This is interesting to hear because it creates the same sensation, I feel watching the movie as well. “Ms” is one of my personal favourites because it is an easy listen and presents a beautiful collaboration of the singer harmonising with a warm guitar and drum pairing. This song is about not wanting a relationship to end or losing feelings for this person in your life but realising you must let go of these feelings you once had.

Overall, this has been and will continue to be music I have on my daily listening mixes. The storytelling alt-Jbrings to their discography is so refreshing and has made me develop an appreciation for musicians that fight against the mould of typical song writing. I relate to many themes over the course of the album An Awesome Wave, which in my opinion gives listeners a deeper understanding and admiration for the artistry that was put in. It is interesting how the tempo of the songs as the album goes on, moves like a wave; starts calm but is still moving, increases into a heavy, energetic rise that may begin around “Breezeblocks”, a peak of energy at “Fitzpleasure” and then finds itself sinking lower again back to sea level. I choose to give alt-J the benefit of the doubt and believe they built this musical tide on purpose for their magical debut album, An Awesome Wave.

Pride Collection

When The Road Split

My thoughts feel like the ground under my feet: dark and crumbling,

staying in one place because the pieces around them won’t let it move.

I paved the road of reasons that I could never be with a woman.

Reason 1: If a day came where my strength drained with the water in the tub,

only a man and his strong arms could lift my helpless body up.

Reason 2: A son and daughter can be easily made

from a man’s donation to my waiting womb.

Reason 3: The proud titles to bear are Husband and Wife.

There can only be one of each.

The road of reasons started as a sidewalk,

a place to pass while crossing the street.

I was positive I’d patched every crack and gap,

Never thinking about preparing for a sinkhole.

The first time I woke up with my boyfriend in bed

I laid under an invisible blanket of fear,

trapped underneath for no one to hear.

As I looked to the locked brown door across the room

The ground holding me dipped,

I missed a spot - the road had split.

Searching for safety in the words of a friend

Hoping she’d have a life jacket to lend

As I told her the tale she smiled sadly and said,

“Have you considered the chance that you might not like men?”

Yes? No. No, I couldn’t.

After staring at the ruined road I found myself asking a friend

A question I begged myself to not understand,

“How did you know you were a lesbian?”

When the road split

I realized I never truly loved a man.

“No Words”

While I say I don’t have the words, stumbling over best guesses, there isn’t a word that fits her and what she does to me. I feel – Empty? Missing a piece I didn’t know I had. Fulfilled? Sounds like a checkbox complete. Satisfied? Doesn’t begin to touch her. Happy? As if happiness can be contained into the one word.

When she smiles and her whole demeanour changes – something I’ve learned is unintentionally intimate and tender – I feel alive.

My face jumps to a smile, sparkling from the spotlight she’s given me.

While I am lost trying to find the right word, I pull us into moments.

Replaying a montage while music plays over us.

Pulling her into me while we dance in a quiet end of a big bookstore. Not caring who sees us laughing and taking the wrong steps.

Holding hands as she sits as my passenger. Singing at the top of our lungs to every song that comes on, not trying to perfect the tune or get every word right.

Feeling proud while as my grandfather tells her that she’s part of the family.

Laughing and whispering as we attempt to stay quiet in my parent’s house… because at three o’clock in the morning we are passionately talking about our novels’ plot holes.

The almost perfect night I told her “I love you,” that first time. The sky in brilliant gay colours at the end of the dock on the lake, swatting mayflies from swarming us.

Kissing her fiercely between movies at the drive-in in the front seat of the pickup truck. Listening to classic rock only to be interrupted by the flash of headlights and pulling apart to laugh.

Climbing into the blanket fort she made me for my birthday. She sang me “Happy Birthday” in her room and blew out a candle on a cake pop.

Making pancakes for dinner instead of going out drinking. The weather is miserable so we stay in to watch movies.

Convincing her mom to keep the Christmas tree up one more day so we could open presents together for our first big holiday. Listening to her sing as we took all the ornaments off right after.

There are times I know I could never explain how I completely feel, even with the right words.

The feeling of looking into her eyes after whispering those three words, that I fall even harder for her. It felt like a lie I had been keeping from her – not telling her how much I love her – was finally spoken and I felt free. She makes me know deep down that I don’t have to doubt myself anymore. I no longer have to question that I’m queer woman.

Snapshots

A dinner with my dad, filled with unrelenting love and acceptance.

A conversation with a dear friend, met with gentle gratitude and kindness.

A drive with my mum, telling me I was worth waiting for. 

A dance in my dorm, when I found out what love is.

A moment by myself, getting rid of letters meant for a husband.

A reunion that broke the distance, leaving me feeling whole once more.

It Is Worth It

There will come a day

when you look over

to the passenger seat

where your heart

will be looking

back at you.

Domestic Sweetness

One laundry basket

mismatched socks in the drawer

Borrowed sweaters

combine two closets

Sheets changed

three extra pillows to cover.

Two toothbrushes,

sit in a cup by the sink.